Tattoo

So. I want a tattoo. I’ve wanted one for years, but I could never settle on an idea. Just the thought of something being permanently on my body kind of scares me. I’ve played around with bible verses, although I’m not extremely religious, I’ve wanted a K behind my ear, but it wouldn’t be professional….I’ve even gone to a tattoo shop and backed out the last second. 

What is with this phobia? My parents disapproval? Possibly. Afraid of the pain? Probably.

I want something that expresses myself,and something I can look back on and smile, because in that moment, I was free. I was free from judgment and worry, I did something a little crazy, and I just lived. 

Pretty, Pretty Princess

As I look towards my last semester as an undergrad and start finishing my graduate school applications, I realize with dread apprehension, I am going to have to start acting and looking like a grown up. Maybe this last semester it will be okay, but once I am in graduate school, there will be no more rolling out of bed an attending class. I will actually have to get up, put effort into how I look. Ugh! Right now I am a pro at waking up 15 minutes before class, throwing on a headband and hoodie, and brushing my teeth and getting to class on time (or within 5 minutes of the start of class……) But now, I am expected to get a job, go to work, gain experience  and dress up!!! Don’t get me wrong, I ADORE doing my hair and makeup and putting on pretty clothes, what kind of princess would I be if I didn’t? But I HATE getting up early. I hate getting up early more than anything. I love staying in bed. It’s so warm, and cozy, and why would anyone want to leave???

On a positive note, I have finally been accepted to Kansas State University to study Public Administration. My mom and I road-tripped down to Manhattan over Spring Break and I signed a lease for an apartment, and things are slowly lining up for next year! I’m extremely excited and I realize how incredibly blessed I am!!

Marriage Equality

Marriage Equality is the hot topic in the news today. With the Supreme Court hearing over DOMA and Prop 8, both sides of the issue are making their stance known. Social media is a barrage of yay and naysayers. The naysayers (ie: the ones not in favor of equal rights…) has repeatedly been quoting the Bible for their basis of discrimination. Well, here are a few things they forgot to mention.

Leviticus 19:28 Tattoos and piercings – Banned
Leviticus 19:19 Wearing mixed fabric- Banned
Mark 10:11-12, Divorce- Banned
1 Timothy 2:9 Women should not adorn themselves with gold or pearls- Banned
Leviticus 19:27: Shaving your beard-Banned
Leviticus 19:16: Gossip-Banned
Exodus 20:8: Keep the Sabbath (Football on Sundays? Banned!)
1 Corinthians 11: 5-6: Women must cover their hair in church.

My personal favorite is Deuteronomy 22: 27-29 “For he found her in the field, and the betrothed damsel cried, and there was non to save her. If a man find a damsel that is a virgin which is not betrothed and lay hold on her, and lie with her, and they be found; Then the man that lay with her shall give unto the damsel’s father fifty shekels of silver, and she shall be his wife…” A woman must marry her rapist.

My point is not to sit here and disparage the Christian faith. I was raised Catholic and still go to church on a semi-regular basis. My point is that we, as humans are, **GASP**, evolving. Our culture has changed, our world has changed, our lives have changed. The Bible not only was written 2000 years ago, but it has been handed down, from man to man, translated into hundreds of languages, and passed around the world. Throughout that time, do you honestly believe nothing has changed? Nothing has been altered, or manipulated, or tweaked? I personally do not have faith in mankind to keep something the same for 2000 years. 

In closing, I just want to say, it shouldn’t be a matter of whether your personal beliefs support marriage equality or not. It should be a matter of does every person, REGARDLESS of faith, have the right to marry someone they love and want to commit their life to. And that answer is yes. Yes they do. 

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~Looking Forward~

So. Finals are over, and after teetering on the edge of political genius and mental exhaustion, I am looking forward to my final semester as an undergrad. CRAZY. It is so scary to think that in 5 short months, I will be walking across the stage and my college graduation,  and obtaining a Bachelor of Science in Political Science. Like I said, CRAZY. I have successfully completed my applications, my multiple recommendation letters from professors and my boss at the City are in the mail, and I am currently updating my resume and CV to be sent to the multiple universities I am applying to. And hopefully, in a few months I will know where I will be spending to next two years of my life.

Not only are changes taking place in my schooling, but also, there are a few exciting possibilities in my personal life as well! The wonderful Boyfriend has decided to possibly buy a house! We have one in particular we are looking at a few short blocks away from the school he teaches at, and I am keeping my fingers crossed that we love it! (Well, as well as you can love pink toilets and blue sinks….) I will keep you all updated on what he (we…?) decide, but I am overly ecstatic at the idea of getting a house that is ours and we can decorate however we want. Rentals are SO restrictive to decorate. We’ve been having to stick to wall hangings and knick knacks to strategically place around the shelves, but now, painting, tiles, light fixtures…they are all within reach!! Aaahh so exciting! 

That is me looking forward to my future!! I can’t wait to let you all know where it goes! <3

Hell Week

Sorry for the lack of posts lately. Unfortunately for my life, I was a super bad student this semester (and by super bad I mean choosing sleep over class sometimes, and putting off papers until last minute) and everything is piling up on me before my eyes. I officially have 12 days until my doom. Unless I get off here and start working. So look for my posts AFTER December 14th. Bye lovelys! xoxo

Once Upon A Time…

Once upon a time, there was a little girl. This little girl loved the play dress up, and put on her mothers make up and jewelry, prancing about the house singing and dancing. Today, the little girl is a little grown up, but still LOVES playing dress up and doing her hair and make up, and she still dances around the house and sings and loves life.

Well, no surprise, the girl is me, and I’m still a princess, and I’m STILL playing dress up. And FRIDAY, I get to play real dress up and be treated like a princess (or model) and have my boyfriend sister in law take pretty pretty pictures of us :) Can’t wait to share them with you all! I hope you have a good week!!

I’ve Never Been Anywhere As Cold As You

Tonight, I am upset. I’m not going to air my dirty laundry on the internet, but everyone, no matter how good their life is, has a few hiccups now and then. So tonight, I’m hurt, lonely, upset, and a little tired of it. And what do 21 year old girls do when they are upset and hurt? They listen to Taylor Swift of course!

I don’t care what anyone says about her. Her talent is lacking, her song writing is immature, she lacks depth. Does any of that really matter? She knows how to connect to her audience. And she sells millions of copies of CD’s because of it. Anytime I am hurting, or I feel down, or I just want to cry, I throw on a T-Swift album and I let it all out.

Tonight, I am feeling neglected. And I turned on Desperate Housewives, grabbed a glass of wine, and tweet some of my favorite T-Swizzle lyrics. For example,

“Maybe we got lost in translation, maybe I asked for too much, but maybe this thing was a masterpiece, til you tore it all up.” –All Too Well

“Hold on baby you’re losing it, the water’s high you’re jumping into it and letting go, and no one knows” –Tied Together With A Smile

AND, my personal favorite tonight…

“You have a way of coming easily to me. And when you take you take the very best of me. So I start a fight because I need to feel something. And you do what you want cause I’m not what you wanted. Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending to a perfect day. Just walk away, no use defending words you will never say. And now that I’m sitting here thinking it through, I’ve never been anywhere as cold as you.” -Cold As You

Oh, how appropriate that song is tonight. How close to home it hits. I think chocolate is called for. Laters Baby ( <– Note 50 Shades reference)